Better days.

Sorrrrryyyy. Crabby mood last night. :)

Anyway, I had a pretty great day. You probably know why if you talked to me. If not...oh well, your loss. Haha .

My sister is coming down for Barefoot since she can't make it to graduation. I'm glad she gets to see all of my hard work. Anyway, I'm more excited about barefoot than graduation anyway. hah.

I'm a little less bummed out about staying until June. A lot of my friends are staying too so it won't be as bad as I thought. It'll give me time to enjoy the summer before I have to start working a real job. Still no word for the internships I applied to :(. Its only been a week though. I think I'm being paranoid.

See you next Friday New Jersey!!

Oh life...

So, I'm about to graduate and I'm scared as hell. I applied to a whole bunch of internships last week and I have yet to hear back. I feel like I'm going for jobs that are way too far out of my reach. They're mostly in NYC, but some are in California, or Chicago. I don't know what I want to do or where I want to go. I'm completely confused and I wish I had some sort of idea of what's next. I guess everyone feels like that when they are graduating...right? Its just like, what I want to do, is unrealistic, and will never happen. I'm starting to figure that out right about now, and it sucks big time. Thats what I get for always wanting big things I guess...disappointment. Its not all disappointment and confusion though. I must say I'm pretty excited. In a year from now, I don't know where I will be, or what I will be doing. I don't know...I just am feeling so many different things right now, and I don't really know where to start.

Barefoot is coming. I'm not really stressed about it because I actually have pretty much everything finished already. I can't wait to prove everyone wrong with this. Some people doubted me when I first got this position, but I must say, I kicked butt this year. I'm excited for it to be finished so everyone can see I actually followed through with all of the ideas I had. I can't STAND some of the people I have to go through to get things done though. They like to believe they are always right just because they've been around a while. Sometimes, people just need to know when to admit THEY ARE WRONG instead of going and jumping to conclusions. Don't be a fucking idiot.

In not so much better news. I go home next week for break. I get to meet my dog and see my friends which I'm pretty excited about. I'm scared though to go home...I haven't been home yet since my mom left so I've been pretty much able to completely ignore everything thats been going on. I guess its time to face reality though. I want to find a happy middle. Somewhere where I don't have to want to get away all of the time. Maybe graduation will be that opportunity.