Thursday, June 12, 2008

2 weeks!

Two weeks til home!!!! Man, am I excited to go back. I need to start working. I'm bored AND broke. My internship starts the week after I get home...July 1st. I'm scared as hell about that.

Thats all I have to say about that.

Saturday, June 7, 2008

Montreal!


I get to go to my absolute most favorite place in the entire WORLD! Montreal!! I got myself tickets to go see Celine FRONT ROW in MONTREAL. I could die of happiness. Now I must go practice my French...because I have no idea.

Thursday, June 5, 2008

Ok really now..

Now that I have a little more time on my hands, I'm going to make it a point to post at least once a week. A lot is going on, and its easier to share, than to keep it all to myself.

For one, I graduated ECU. I'm still her until the 25th because I have a few summer classes that I needed to take for me to be able to graduate this May. My internship starts as soon as I get back. I'm excited, nervous, scared...basically, every possible feeling there is to have, I feel. I got an e-mail today about one of their programs they were holding next week for their interns that already started. I'm so jealous I'm not there yet.

Aside from the fact that I have to start paying loans in less than 6 months, I will also probably have to get my own apartment in 6 months. Sure, not that big of a deal in somewhere like NC, but up north, at home, apartments are $1000 a month. My parents divorce is becoming more real now that I'm moving home, and I guess it finally hit my last night. I was on the phone crying with my mom until 12am, and for me thats big. I don't cry. I know it will hopefully be for the better, it just makes it feel like I don't even know my own family. And it sort of feels, like I don't have a home to go back to, because its not home. It will get better and I'll be ok.

In other news, theres a massive wild fire the next county over..and its getting smokey here. I hate fires, I hate tornados. North Carolina = no fun for a paranoid me. :(

Sunday, April 6, 2008

Sony BMG!

So, I had an interview at Sony BMG for an internship this past friday...and got the job! I was happy enough to get the interview because to work at Sony BMG is my DREAM JOB and I know that its so competitive. This is amazing, I've always wanted to work here. If I were able to pick one place to work, this would be it.

Anyway, I flew home just for the interview. I felt so grown up in my business clothes in the city it was crazy. The building was intense. The lobby is marbel floor to ceiling...its some serious stuff. So I got in there, nervous as hell, and had my first interview with human resources. She then sent me to my first out of three interviews. My first interview was for Legacy Recordings for Media Relations. I would be working with compilation albums/soundtracks etc. He said it was one of the smaller departments so I would be able to network with all the different departments and be more hands on. This is perfecto for me because I'll be able to see all of the different departments before I try to get a real job there. So after my first interview I went back to the lobby to wait for my second, but they offered me the job on the spot! Of course I accepted!!

Now its like...ok...I'm 21...and will already be working at my dream job. Its an amazing feeling. Like right now, I almost have nothing to worry about. Wow. I've never been happier. I had only two goals that would make me happy (obviously besides my family and friends staying healthy and happy :) ) one was working at a job that I will love (Sony!) and two is to fall in love and have a family. And you know what, right now, just accomplishing one of those is fine by me!

Thursday, February 28, 2008

Better days.

Sorrrrryyyy. Crabby mood last night. :)

Anyway, I had a pretty great day. You probably know why if you talked to me. If not...oh well, your loss. Haha .

My sister is coming down for Barefoot since she can't make it to graduation. I'm glad she gets to see all of my hard work. Anyway, I'm more excited about barefoot than graduation anyway. hah.

I'm a little less bummed out about staying until June. A lot of my friends are staying too so it won't be as bad as I thought. It'll give me time to enjoy the summer before I have to start working a real job. Still no word for the internships I applied to :(. Its only been a week though. I think I'm being paranoid.

See you next Friday New Jersey!!

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Oh life...

So, I'm about to graduate and I'm scared as hell. I applied to a whole bunch of internships last week and I have yet to hear back. I feel like I'm going for jobs that are way too far out of my reach. They're mostly in NYC, but some are in California, or Chicago. I don't know what I want to do or where I want to go. I'm completely confused and I wish I had some sort of idea of what's next. I guess everyone feels like that when they are graduating...right? Its just like, what I want to do, is unrealistic, and will never happen. I'm starting to figure that out right about now, and it sucks big time. Thats what I get for always wanting big things I guess...disappointment. Its not all disappointment and confusion though. I must say I'm pretty excited. In a year from now, I don't know where I will be, or what I will be doing. I don't know...I just am feeling so many different things right now, and I don't really know where to start.

Barefoot is coming. I'm not really stressed about it because I actually have pretty much everything finished already. I can't wait to prove everyone wrong with this. Some people doubted me when I first got this position, but I must say, I kicked butt this year. I'm excited for it to be finished so everyone can see I actually followed through with all of the ideas I had. I can't STAND some of the people I have to go through to get things done though. They like to believe they are always right just because they've been around a while. Sometimes, people just need to know when to admit THEY ARE WRONG instead of going and jumping to conclusions. Don't be a fucking idiot.

In not so much better news. I go home next week for break. I get to meet my dog and see my friends which I'm pretty excited about. I'm scared though to go home...I haven't been home yet since my mom left so I've been pretty much able to completely ignore everything thats been going on. I guess its time to face reality though. I want to find a happy middle. Somewhere where I don't have to want to get away all of the time. Maybe graduation will be that opportunity.

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Dream homes!

I've been thinking a lot about what I want to do and where I want to go after I graduate. I don't want to be one of those people who says Ooo I'm going to go France, California, New York and then...just move next store to my parents. It all depends on a job of course BUT wherever I move I want it to be near the beach. I've grown up in a lake community and lived here all my life and I can't see myself being away from the water.


Now, my dream homes: